Reflections (wrote fm 30 dec to 31 dec).
So many negative tots these days. Actuly, every morning I will wake up feeling quite positive lei. Esp tat fateful day on tue. I stil remember while I was on the company bus, I did nt sleep like as usual. I am thinking abt al e nice gd things and ppl I encountered here, admiring e blue sky & the barren trees. I also had impulsion to blog abt all wonderful stuff. But somehow, by e end of the day, my mood would had changed drastically lor. Sianz. Anyway, as I said ytd, “today will be better”. At least today I will be meeting MQ they all at Xia Duo.. nothing can go wrong rite? Haha keeping my fingers crossed and we shall just wait & see bah. Hee

B4 I proceed to my reflections for this yr, Let me start with something positive sia.
Just a quick update. i am now teaching my colleagues at work on how to use the PC. And simple programs like word & excel. I mean, it is v rewarding. Some of them had nvr touched the pc/keyboard b4. they r apprehensive yet excited, inconfident yet enthusiastic. It is really a pleasure to teach them. From the basic of turning on the pc/monitor, explanation of the keys on the keyboard. Den to how to type in words. (both Chinese & English, basic stuffs like how to edit e word to e way they want, how to open new file, save etc) den proceed to simple excel skills on forms creation, simple formulas. They r reali serious in learning & it is indeed enjoyable to teach them. Althou I must admit it is rather diff to explain everything in Chinese and they r pretty slow at times. Needs a lot of patience.gd training for me as well I guess. So in order to let them have more practice, I brought my laptop to work these 2 days to let them try.. hee and now I am typing away on the company transport. But coz e space btw seats r too small, I cant put my screen vertically and so basically, I am merely staring at e keyboard but cant see wat I am typig haha

2005. rather eventful yr. thou I cant reai remember wat I had done whole yr long. I mean, it is like such an eventful & long yr. so many changes to my life man. Recalling, I guess e firest thing I did was to take part in CS day.

CSC day 2005
basically an event organized by CSC (comm. Service club) in jan thi yr. we invited residents fm all he dif homes to NUS to have a day of fun (carnival –like wh performance).. I was in e prog team under GUOzhang, working wif Fred also & with my 3 seniors, JW, Vic &JJ. E whole organizing experience is v enriching & v fun. Glad to noe GZ & Fred thru this. Hey r v nice & fun-loving ppl. Esp like quabbling wif GZ. Haha. We always quarrel all we want BUT we managed to get things done. Quite well I tink. Haha.

@ Wonderkids
Continued as prez at wonderkids.. working wif e new exo for new season. Initially I keep poking my nose into wat they do. As a mean to guide them,.. had high expectations of e new batch. Tried to take part in more activities organized by them also. V glad tat the new batch is v united & bonded real well. Seniors dun come so often liao. But understandable. As wat JJ always say, seniors have to leave somehow, tat’s when juniors come in. tat’s how things work also. Reluctantly, gt to accept it as wat it is. Tinkin back, 5 mths without wonderkids, make me rather empty at times. Last time, every wk, there is wonderkids for me to look forward to. It gt sth to do with the magic of e kids, e satisfaction fm doing sth meaningful, e love for facilitating , e special touch fm all e volunteers tat make volunteering such a wholesome & gratifying experience. I stil rcv individual emails fm yishunyahoogp. And v glad tat they r moving on v well. bringing yishun to greater heights. Everyone I know r taking up big roles and r v suitable for them. Nt putting their capability to waste. KL,XQ,EK,Quek,fred etc.. so glad for them. XH also doing a great job. However, also sad coz I am no longer part of e gp. CSC/yishunwonderkids used to form e largest part of my MSN contacts. It stil is, but it is also e most dormant liao. Dun reali hear fm most of them. Haha, is it part of moving on also? I miss them.

CHEM ENG life
Oops. Just realized I dun recall much abt academic life. Even had a hard time trying to recall wat modules I took lor. Jialat.. basically a so-so semester lah. Caps also so-so, motivation so-so. But enjoyed company with e class. More interaction wif PRC coz of labwork too. Hmm, tinkin back I tink for some unknown reasons, I dun seem to be able to perform nowadays. Distraction?not reali also. Den wat? I duno. Tink I need a break fm e mundane studying, tuition etc. tiredz & need a break fm e norm..

NOC decision.- to go or nt to go
Ya.. althou I gt into NOC in sem 3. e idea of gg overseas for a yr did nt reali sink into me. I know I gt myself into sth quite prestigious. By right, most others who get in will be most glad. But for me.. I was rather hestitant coz I dunno wat I want. Gg china will be exicting but den am I willing to give everything up? including an opportunity to go to some prestigious petroleum company for intern? Somemore, my family financial nt tat gd and my family nt tat supportive after all. nt spportive as they dun understand watt is prog is abt. Why cant just stay in Singapore? Why need to go for so long? I nvr travel b4, let alone go and live for a yr.. can I take e loneliness? Can I take care of myself? Can I take e cold? Unlimited questions which I hate to answer. Perhaps coz I cant convince myself tat I can do it also but dun wanna let an opportunity go like dat.I keep putting e idea away & told myself to conc on studies first. Wait til I gt a company offer. Den I shall decide.

COMPANY offer
Yup. Indeed I gt. 2 b4 y decision was made and 1 after. I thought seriously abt it for v v long. Decided on my current job now. e seemingly most boring/lowest pay/wulu location one/& alone.regret?nope. no regrets man! I am stil learning.

Meeting of friends & departure
Yupz. Met up wif many frenz. They r all nice to me. Many gave me lots of souveniors & took e trouble to send me off. Reali v grateful for tat. And I stil rem e departure at e airport. How sad I am to leave and how some of my frenz tear for me. I am reali v fortunate to have a bunch of super gd frenz.

Life in shanghai
Hmm, wat to say? A v gd learning ground. Learnt many things. At work, on survival skills. Get to meet inspiring ppl at times. Gt to play & travel too. Happening & enriching.
Also there is this thing abt Freedom vs loneliness.
Yesh I am free to do wat I want. Dun need to answer to anyone.no need to consult anyone. Sometimes, when I consult, e response I get is “up to u”. I hate hearing tat. E reason of askin is I duno yet u stil say up to me. Ya, so tis leads to e other side of e coin. I have to live like an independent indivdual here. no one has obligations to be there for me... at times when I feel low, when I dun wanna be alone, I might call others but I cant bring myself to ask for company. I will merely hope for others to sense my helplessness and mebbe offer help. But it seems like unfulfilled hopes nor empty promises only serve to make things worse. Tink perhaps, it is better to stop being so naïve and stop hoping.gt to learn to behave like a grown-up liao. Cant depend on others all e time. Esp when they have no obligations to do so.. no wonder ppl say gg overseas can cultivate independence. The emotional void can reali get to me sometime. Discussed it wif HL b4. tink she is feeling it too. But even feel a greater extend den me & cant wait to be back. For me, stil nt tat bad, onli when boliao or when things get to me den more affected by it. So, reali gt a lot more to learn for me.

Okok, v long liao. Even of reflection liao. Now waiting for e guys to go eat breadfast wif meiqing & me. **hungry**

PMS mode

hmm, duno why lei. things dun reali seems to be gg e right way and i am hereby declaring tat i am on PMS mode. highly emotional & unstable。 even e slightest things can make me tear. n i hate it e way i am now. e vulnerable me.
ok, sort of gt over e trickster incident. and today, was happily gg home after work, & intending to go pay e parking fee thingy for our landlord. i tink i suffer minor night blindness or wat, but i cant seem to find e "office" at our xiao qu. i mean, i went quite a no of times liao, but today, i keep walking up & fro. for abt 4-5 times, den saw e office. dark & closed. sianz

proceeded home. and guess wat? e lock cant be open. shit. me tried & tried. gentle ways, violent ways. nope. e key cant go in. it doesnt budge. and e stupid sound sensor light keep gg on & off, on & off. e wind keep blowing. damn eerie. decided to give myself a break. i went downstairs again. i stood at e lift lobby and stoned. at least downstairs is brighter, i see ppl and e light dun go off and on. ok, gt to admit i am a scaredy-cat. and i am reali quite scared. i walked along e blocks, hoping to spot familiar faces. with each step and wait, i gt more disappointed and felt rather useless to just wait. so i decided to go back again to try. up i go and i spent another 20 mins? but to no avail. frustrated wif e door, wif myself and my damn lousy luck. i gave up, went downstairs. and sat down on e steps in e cold. while i waited and think of wat to do.

den, i went to e security post at exit 1. i wanted to ask them for help. or at least borrow their phone. but i duno wat to tell them. it will be so stupid if i told them i gt key but cant open & tat i am scared rite? i loitered ard e security post and walked back to my void deck. den i recalled tat i had talked to fionna's chinese hse mate e day b4. and decided to be thick-skin & ask for his help. hestitated quite a well coz 1.i duno him 2. he is alone in e hse & it is weird for me to approach him like dat.i pressed his doorbell, e gate opened, i went up, knocked on his door waited but no response. strange. i tink i called e wrong number. anyway, i just walked away.

i went to another security post at exit 2 and paused to think again. shd i call for repair man directly? or call e hse ppl? im case they can open?how do i ask to borrow phone? i dun wan to sound too ke lian u see. decided nt to go to that "fateful" road to call, nor anyhow find some repair man. in case i gt cheated again. gt a bit of phobia. so i decided to walk to shallene's hse.try my luck u see.

as u might guess. rather easily i guess, shallene is reali nt at home.damn sad. went over to shifu hse. and onli his daughter is at hm. lied to her abt my hp no batt and decided to call by hse ppl. one by one, they told me
1. they r coming back late2, justin ask me call alvin, alvin ask me abt justin, told me call bao-an, huiling also duno wta time
2. duno wat to do. (i ask them if wanna wait for them to come back or call someone to repair.)
hmmm, can u imagine how i feel? i am already locked out fm 6 plus til 8 plus. i had nt eaten, i had no hp. no body can tell me what to do. i feel rather lost & insecure..i can sense they dun reali wanna come back asap also. no body did. afterall, they had their own activities. which simply equates to, me have to settle it myself. no matter how insecure & helpless i feel. i have to get it done myself.
fine. i walked & walked. down towards tat "fateful" street where i met e 2 pianzi. saw one shop wif "shang men kai suo" but closed le. but gt his hp there. i paid for a payphone and call immediately. scared tat he might be a con-man or wat, wat if they open e door and dashed in? i asked e security guard to accompany me while tat repairman fix e thing.

e door turned out to be damn diff to fix man. took a total of 45 min in e end. finally gt it, bathe, & cooked mee. shallene, justin & david came back. saw shallene & yup, sort of broke down. coz i tink somehow, a bit too much to bear for me these days lah. i am just angry at how unsmooth things can go. and dun like to be out there alone & helpless. v useless like.

anyway, lesson learnt.
1.i guess i am more independent now. i am solve problem alone. afterall, only e one facing it directly/first will be e one to solve it for e rest. if sth does nt affect someone immediately/directly, they will nt feel e urgency, so no pt asking for help.
2. security guards can be e nicest friends too. v reliable, always there and available for immediate help. at least they are wif me when i asked for help. they made me feel secure while e repairman fix e door.

anyway, i am pretty tired liao. lets hope 明天会更好！

答案揭晓 – 上当了

Yeah, as the heading says. Yup. I had been tricked.
Aiyo, actuly til now. I stil dun reali believe tat such a thing will happen.
Nt tat such a thing will happen to me. But why such ppl exists?
Ppl who will go all e way OUT to cheat ppl who will go all e way OUT to help them.
Aiyo, what is tis world becoming too?

To cut e story short, on tue, I met this 2 “ünfortunate students” who came to shanghai but atm cant work, cant find e person they r supposed to find, luggage chlked in but no money. Passports at hotel as deposits, hp no batt, & nt working. Typical story by tricksters. Yesh I know.
But den, there is sth diff abt this story. Perhaps coz they r students overseas. So am i. perhaps I was reali out of my mnd den. I believed them. Yesh I reali do.
I went to take 2000RMB to lend them. And even more 夸张，I lent them my phone too. Okok, yesh u must b tinkin I am out of my mind again. But I reali did.
They gave me a no. and we agreed to met somewhere, e nxt day.
The no turned out to be 空号.. but I stil went to e place to wait. Stil habouring e tot, tat they might be there waiting as well. I stil believe them, despite e loopholes, the 空号, and I turned out tat I am a fool after all. reali quite 白痴lor.

On tue night & wed, I had been feeling rather terrible.
I know there is a 99% that I had been cheated. Yet I choose to believe in e 1%. But there r stil many times when I am unable to convince myself too.
I know I am damn stupid. E money could had been better spent elsewhere
I dunno why such mishaps regarding money is always happening to me. Is it coz I had been too stingy. Since I dun spent e money, it always end up in e hands o shanghai pickpockets/thieves/tricksters.it seems rather unfair to me lei. I always wanted to save up more rainy days. I reali do.
I dun understand why such bad ppl exist in e world. I told e gal v bluntly tat e money is nt total mine. I borrowed to lend them. & I told her I took e risk to lend them. How ould her/them, after knowing how reali want to help them, do this to me?

Anyway, immediately upon realization, I went home. On e way, yesh tears flow. Ok, tears had been flowing since it dawned on me I might be cheated. No one at home. Which Is gd in a way. I can cry all e way I want. Duno why I cry thou. Is it nt reali e amt of money. But to realize how foolish I am. Wanted to talk to someone badly and I called home.

Initially I hesitated if I shd confide in my parents/family. Coz I am scard tat it might coz undue anxiety and worry. In e end, I did, and broke down. Haha, we had a long chat. I am so glad tat I told them everything coz in e end, I reali feel e load off me lor. I finally let everything le. I guess I am v guilty tat I had just wasted a gd 400Sing away plus gave my phone away. 400sing = tying of strings on 133,333 cards by my mum, or 10 days of working under e sun by my dad.lor. stupid me.

Lessons learnt anyway, I am fine now le. Reali. thanks for all yr concern and dun ask me to repeat e story again k? it will only make me feel more stupid. Wat I gained out of it are：
1.Do not believe in what strangers tell you. Best is dun talk to sttangers at all.
2. listen to my hse guys, they give quite gd advice.
3. my 金钱概念sucks, ok, my hse guys decided to help me keep my money in future.
3. what ever happens, family & friends will always be there for you. Thank you. Luv ya ppl!

reply to comment by BOSS..

hey BOsS, aka JW (rite?)..better late den nvr.
thanks for making my DaY.
all e way fm cold harsh ShAnGhAi..

人之初，真的是心本善吗？

过分的善良，是否成了愚笨？
过分的信任，是否成了盲目？
过分的天真，是否成了无知？
而好心真的会有好报吗？
还是，要付出惨痛的代价才能了解 “防人之心不可无”的道理？
答案很快会有揭晓，希望不会令我失望。。。
若不是真的，也只能怪自己太愚笨，盲目和无知了。
其实，我比谁都害怕。。。

POsT xmas ENTRY

ok, i know tis entry is a bit late. but had tis sudden urge to pen down how i spent my christmas tis yr. and mebbe write abit abt how i spent my christmas wkend. haha. ytd when i wrote the "homesick" entry. i was rather down to write abt happy stuff. hee.

okok, first abt friday nite.
oh well, it was a v eventful nite! after work, i rushed home immediately for my NDP project discussion wif limin & ron. b4 limin arrive, i was busy editing videos. wat videos? OK, my manager, jason's b dae falls on 24 dec and i was decided to give him a memorable prezzie. he has always been v nice to me lor. so on fri at work, i borrowed his cam and took more ard 40 videos. 30 over videos on 30 over staffs, singing one line of happy b dae. as in i asked some to sing e first line, some sec line, some third , some fourth line. den i string everything into 4-5 continuous b dae songs! may sound rather bo liao or easy but let me tell u it is rather difficult lor. everyone i approached, i gt to explain to them tat

1. its jason's b dae.
2. wat i wanna do
3. convince tell to sing (which is rather hard. tehy v shy)
4. make them sing e right line (they seem to mix e tune)
5. relax & sing without NG..

hmm, so.. it is really v tiring lor. and i had to sneak ard. nt to let jason see. nt to let my boss see.
as i onli noe how to use window movie maker. i was so upset when i realised tat e videos r in .mov formatt!!! cant use WMM.. i went online to download some converter and started to convert them one by one. but damn slow. so decided to call justin & asked for help. to use his laptop & try to figure out how to do using adobe premiere pro.BUT i reali dunno how to add titles or words using premiere pro. aiyo. so i tried to use combi of premiere & WMM. save fm premiere it will become wma den can edit using WMM. but damn tedious. anyway, limin came and we discussed til 9 plus and i continue wif editing. was working on it using e 2 programmes plus PPT til 10.45pm. i fix e songs but duno how to add words to make e story flow.DEN justin finally came home. My saviour! haha. n e end, he managed to help me finish up in 20mins? impressive. and yesh i learnt something new. okok, den i quickly took cab & rushed down to join my colleagues for KTV. they were there fm 6.30am and gona sing tl 6am. coz of my proj plus e video production, i told them i will join them at 11 plus. v fun. everyone waiting for me & also waiting for 12am to arrive so tat we can all wish jason happy b dae. first time wif colleagues, v fun. we sang til 5 plus.

SAT
headed home, washed up, washed clothes. did a bit of report and slept at 8am. worked up again at 11 plus to continue. yesh 3 hrs of sleep onli.. yawns. went out at 3 wif alvin & ron to acc them buy pressie for exchange. i bought mine liao. and we waited for 45 min to catch a cab to simply thai to meet e rest for xmas dinner. 45MINS lei. wa liew, we walked and flagged cab like crazy but all e cabs r occupied! wat an experience man. so. had great dinner at simply wif NOC ppl. went back home & rested at 1am. did nt join e "drink til puke" gang nor e "sing & be cultured" group. ron & i decided "to go hm & study".. haha

SUN - XMAS
woke up at 7 plus. realised justin in toilet & waited. den realised both him & alvin gg for cerecare! i wana go too. but hestitated coz i was supposed to finish my report by 1pm & pass to ron. but heck lah, they waited for me, while i quickly washed up and off we go. 1.5 hr journey to cerecare! tehy r having a xmas party for e kids there. (i shall get e photos fm them soon and post them up!) reminds me of wonderkids. but i wished i can get more involved. suddenly miss faciliating lei. all those planning & execution. prompted me to view e pooh camp videos. den saw all my frenz & seniors video. esp e "magic tricks performance" & JJ "wo de bu dao ni de ai qing" clip. damn funny. miss ya ppl!
btw, we later went ikea. & i reached home at clsoe to 4pm. finished report & slept all e way til nxt morn. oops. actuly woke up a few times lah but stil chose to continue sleepin.

MON
presentation! woke up at 5am to prepare my presentation and look thru e finalised report again. we gona do presentation in chinese and tat is when i realised i cannot make it. haha. all thsoe chinese technical terms r rather confusing.. anyway over liao.
and i visited meiqing at her hall again. went to "kup" her photos. and chit-chated wif her. she heading for singapore soon and we took quite a no of photos!

HoMEsIcK

yesh, homesick as stated in the title.
festive seasons, ironically, make ppl overseas homesick. Homesick ppl will start tinkin abt their family & friends.. and
1. tink abt time spent at home and may tear when they r alone. (like on bus on e way home? erm. or rather accomodation?..)
2. look thru all e photos and videos that they took back at home. (for my case, singapore. i looked thru photos taken wif all my diff frenz and e videos of last yr pooh camp. made me realise how i miss being part of wonderkids. i used to be so involved and suddenly i am so detached now)
3. have the impulsion to GO home. for fear tat they will be forgotten. after all, everyone still live as per normal. i mean, of coz, life still goes on, everyone leads their own lives, it just makes me feel sad tat i am now out of so many ppl's lives liao. ppl whom i used to see regularly. whom i always rely on. whom i always spend time with. suddenly they seems out of my life as well. will things be e same when i am back?
ok, tis is nt making much sense. i shall just go sleep now.
btw: just received a christmas card fm my family. so so happY. thanks mum, dad, sis, bro & gran. LOVE ya~

"sticks & stones only break bones, words can shatter e soul"

one of those "flowery" phases, i would use in secondary school days when i write my essay. My english had nvr been gd, so will try to force it to look cheem by adding some flowery lines. but tat is nt e onli reason. one other reason is tat i believe tat tis sentence is so true to heart. something tat i can relate with. rather often.

perhaps i am too sensitive at times. too sensitive a person, so words can hurt me. (nt shatter to that extend lah).
perhaps i am a difficult person to understand. ppl only see the surface & tink otherwise.

perhaps i easily regard ppl ard me as my friends. close frens. and i expect too much of a fren. i expect a fren to understand me better. esp after so much communication & time spent together. only to know.. i am regarded as someone cheapo.. after all. yesh, i noe the person say it jokingly. e person may nt mean it..but as what i always believe, as agreed by yu.. it is the unintentional words that hurts even more. coz tat is the truest of all.

so..what is the definition of being cheapo? who would want to be cheapo, if he/she can help it? who likes to be regarded as cheapo? who understands the internal struggle inside a cheapo's mind? and what's wrong with being one? i admit i am cheapo most of the time but i dare to say i am only harshest to myself, on my personal expenses but i am willing to spend on family & frenz & colleagues. if i can afford to do so. it is so unfair to judge me or pass comments without knowing me well. and i know it is just so stupid for me to be so affected by it. However, that is if i tink it is not true. i guess i am just upset. so defensive and over-reacting coz i know i cant help but agree tat the remark is true to a large extend.i am just a pathetic cheapo who minds how others tink of me, esp people i regard as frenz. whom i tot would understand me.

i miss my frenz so much. frenz in singapore. frenz who had grown with me.(PYQT )frenz who most understand me. who see the true me. frenz who bother to read my blog. thanks. anyway, i tink by the time you read this, i shd be ok and studying for my exams liao. i just need an outlet and rest assure, i recover v fast. i have learnt to be stronger. i hope. dun worry.

Senior farewell Part 2

hey yo,yup i noe my exams on 22 dec and i shd be studying BUT.. i was slacking now (typing my blog away) and playing fm ytd til tis morn again. (dinner and beer ytd til 11pm.. KTV fm 12am to 6am).. slept fm 8am to 3pm. hmmm.. play, food and no work

yesh, dinner at some chinese restaurant, food okok onli. a thank you dinner for all e bosses and SHEN's contacts here in china, ctc ppl in FUDAN etc.Prof Teo and Prof Tan also joined us at the dinner. DInner was just as norm, nothing tat interesting esp for all e beer drinking.. everyone challenging each other in beer drinking. many reali drink alot. some gt drunk (gab & edwin ting).. some puked (gab, edwin ting & koh and ck.) haha. u shd see e way they drink man. drink and drink. i mean even i drank 4 glass bottles of heneiken? it all started wif toasting and photo taking. till i tink edwin ting(who was quite drunk den already) started pouring/splashing beer on MC. den wanted to do on edwin koh. den i big mouth say shdnt e stars be e 3rd batch instead. tat;s when i gt beer on my head and clothes too. HUH. and all hell broke loose after tat. almost all gt beer on them. intentional or unintentional. hee..

went KTV AGAIN. actuly i am a BIT sick of KTV liao. i mean i have enuff of KTV. KTV wif abt e same ppl, singing e same songs.. but still went coz quite a no of seniors went & i tot it would be gd to ave ard round of ktv wif them. and after all e beer, most shd be quite high wat.. but i guess. it became too much beer til many become "seh" and slept @ e KTV..so quite diff fm wat i expected but til ok in general..e bingo ppl & huiling's frenz went too.. but guess shd abstain fm ktv liao..

seniors leaving, juniors coming. a transition tat we have to face every time everywhere. i mean in all orgainsations, CCA etc. & i am someone who dun like e feeling of parting. thou it is true tat such parting r inevitable but i always feel tat feelings/bonds fade away wif timewhen ppl dun bother to maintain it. esp when everyone has their own things to do when things get busy. e best time to noe each other is when u spend time and work together. & i reali treasure such seniors-juniors-same batch friendships bond. started out in jc harmo wif e juniors, den yishun CSC wif e seniors, my batch & den e juniors. tink it makes me feel sad to realise tat it seems like only me who is unwilling to let go of such "ties". perhaps mebbe coz i am a too "insecure" person? reluctant to face changes.. and especially like to hide in comfort and guidance of seniors, even thou i had long learnt to be independent and mebbe even ready to guide juniors.

strange thou. in SHEN. mebbe coz of geographic reasons (of my hse and workplace) and time constraint. and my plain,stingy & unhappening character (seldom go out to puxi area to chill nor party or indulge in gd but ex gatherings). i din reali get to interact wif many seniors, nor spend lots of time wif them. except for

shallene, zihui & elaine esp shallene, coz we keep popping over to their hse. stil rem seeing shallene's email reply to yahoo gps when i was stil in singapore. offering their place for stayover while we search for our hse. while we shd be extremely grateful right fm e start of her v kind gesture, i haf to admit wif guilt tat we initially tot tat it might be rather weird & awkward thou we were extremely grateful. so we arranged to put our luggage at their hse, dengo over minghan's hse for e first nite. in e end, it turned out tat we were felt reali welcome and HOMELY at their hse e sec nite and third day & nite, all e way til we found our hse. all thanks to shallene, zihui & elaine. & also wanjing who was staying their den. Zihui & Shallene, just dropped wat every things they have in their hands, treated us to dinner, Zihui getting help fm CK to fix e broadband connections for us, and elaine always popping over to their room to talk to us. reali. i reali felt so at home den. u gals nvr noe how much u all mean to us, or at least me.

1.Shallene - my guiding light. my most fav senior. always so enlighting and ever ready to share her tots, her experiences and her helping hand. when ever i am down, at home, at work, at driving. she is always able to understand & cheer me up. always lending me her stuffs so generously. always so nice, so shallene. her determination, her courage, her motivation & devotion to her religious is v inspiring. keep it tat way shallene. to me, u r reali v charming, both inside & outside.

2.zihui - another gal, whom is ever ready to help. despite her slow msn responses as agreed by all thou. haha. tis senior also goes all e way out to help us and is equally generous too!

3.elaine - yesh, thou she has e qian jing xiao jie look, appears and behaves like one. she is definitely diff fm those typical dao dao chio bus. elaine is v warm & enthu & helpful.. always jioing us for KTV. but we always end up nt gg when she jio.. or gg when she nt ard. reali sprry elaine. hee. but u finally gt yr wish last nite! KTV gathering!!!
mc & edwin coz of huangshan trip tat we gt to talk more and also panel discussion and e train ride to beijing of coz.

4.MIn chuan - a v capable man whom i onli gt to know better recently. as i told him b4, h did nt strike me as a tat "approachable" person right fm e start. haha. i had always expected heads to be more affable towards juniors. or at least shd try to get to noe everyone and mebbe do a personal introduction. at least show effort to at least make us feel tat he sort of knowledge our presence. something which he didnt..haha. mebbe i expected too much lah. these r just minor things and i noe of coz he has otehr more impt things den making us feel welcome right fm e start. i told him b4 he & edwin have tat 高不可攀 aura.. reali v gd at establishing links wif others..networking etc, v gd terms wif their own batch ppl but gave me e impression tat they had neglected us, e juniors. oh well. tis impression stayed wif me.. all e way til huangshan trip til i realised tat he is genuinely capable & gd and v nice to talk to. MAF prep, when he keep calling to follow our progress, he sincere thanks and concern, reali changed my impression of him. fm - a capable prez who dun care abt juniors to a v capable prez who is too busy to show individual concern for juniors. hee..had a great talk wif him during e train ride to beijing thou. =)

5. edwin - same as e above.most tat applies to mc applies to him as well. super organised and a great leader, esp like his debrief for PD. thou he claims he is nt, i still feel tat he is enigmatic. e sort who is a great listener, gives advise but seldom talk abt himself. ok, mebbe i shd say harder to open up ba. BUT still v happening and crazy & stil gives wonderful advises and always helps in organising small little trips here & there. thou it is nt easy doing all e organising & coordinatiob but tis guy seldom complains lei.
Chin keong & lee tong (now my ah ma & ah gong) since huangshan trip.

6.chin keong - huangshan trip, beijing trip. tat;s how i gt to know tis guy better. stil rem how he will chiong down or up e stairs at huang shan, how disappointed he is when his chipsmore biscuits dropped down into e valley. super amusing lor. claimed by huijing during pink party tat he is e "cutest" among batch 3, i tink he does have wat it takes to get tat title. funny, humerous, yet serious when there is a need to. ah gong, do keep in touch k, fm yr guai sun nv.

7. lee tong- declared to be my ah ma, since huangshan trip. fm wat i hear fm otehrs. mostly xiangling, tis guy is forever so S.N.A.G. cooking and looking after sick hse-mates, a 100% faithful bf (unlike ** who stil lend/offer his shoulders for gals to sleep on or hug so willingly even thou he noe his gf will be jealous..oops personal attack..haha..you noe who u r if u happen to read this..) yet witty and humorous in his quiet ways.

8.KC coz we found out our ties as NJ senior-junior relationship & now he came to pick us up when we first arrived. v touched lor. thou i had a impression den tat mebbe he came coz he wanna accompany huixian. oops! haha, great senior wif his own thinking who likes to be different fm others.

9.shuhui - occasional stayovers and ever so enthu & energetic. party gal yet so easy to talk to when in trouble. one who dun hide her feelings & tots. always v open and i admire her candidness.

10. fionna who always appear so wise always, giving us advise on driving, business and life. reali had seen much more den most of us, me especially and it is v interesting to listen to her as she shares her experiences unselfishly..

11.yvonne - e ever violent (to guys) yet thoughtful (to all) senior wif sammi cheng mesmerising voice. v cool yet warm in her ways.

12. huijing - chongster who wanna had GREEN hair and forever being picked on by virginia. helped me to pass some stuffs to my family & back to me and is always v helpful & fun-loving
oops. seems like i listed all. nvr knew tat..unknowing, i had slowly become rather attached to all seniors liao.some i did nt realise til now. many of which may be one way thingy. as in they may nt realise. BUT all had left a deep impression and v impt part of my 1 yr stay here. reali hope we can maintain this bond when they all r back and we can continue to noe each other better and i reali look forward to more opportunities wif working wif them. i had came to shanghai wif no relatives, no friends intially, no contacts, and they had become v impt part of my "family" here. reluctantly, i shall bade gdbye to all of them & wish them all the best (whole-heartedly)..
til we meet again.

p/s: wah. 5pm liao. spent 1 hr plus writing tis. hmm, time to get back to work le.

anotehr p/s: joshua sup, thanks for yr comments, i cant enter e comments site to reply u there. thanks for reading my blog and yr replies made my day =)

~monday morn

yup. morning morn 7.55am. i shd be on e way to lessons at fudan but i am comfortably seated in my room, typing my blog away. hmm.. guilty? yesh a bit. so shall limit myself to 10 mins of blog plus reply meiying's email. afterall, my intention to pon sch and stay at home is to.. do some stuff for work. BUt shall meiying's email and she sort of "inspired" me to blog. hee~

ok, ytd was a nice and cosy day resting at home.
1. studying my HRM - managed to skim thru 2 chapters. OK v slow but will pick up somehow
2. reading harry potty- half blood prince. onli allowed myself to read a chapter after i feel tat i had accomplished sth.
3. cooking lunch! - yeah egg wif tomatos, xiao bai cai wif mushrooms, steamed tofu wif minced pork, potatoes-carrot-pai gu soup cooked by me. HL cooked sambal eggplant, bai cai-mushroom-nian gao-cucumber dish, he bao dan & luncheon meat with the remaining soup from lunch. YUmmy 2 meals. nt forgetting e green bean soup cooked by justin.
4. was so bored halfway studying & i went wif justin & ron to buy snacks and tidbits and instant noodles to stock up in our hse. hmm.. bought over 100 bucks of tidbits lor. haha
5. webcam. chating wif mum, dad & sis.

ok. wat is here is a bit personal. dun like it when ppl assume tat i am bored when i stay at home doing nothing(or rather it seems like nothing). i dun like gg out and spent money unneccessay & i feel tat at tis pt of time, studying for exams is like more impt ba. esp when i had been slaskin since e day i arrived here.
gosh, and dun assume tat i am bored just coz he is nt ard. pls lor. give me a break.
yup, tat's all. back to work.

~weekend

yup.. actuly i typed a long entry last wk BUT den it went missing. pissed me off den i lazy to type again haha.
let me just write abit abt last wkend den. last wk. has a having-fun, spend money wkend. haha. sat we went to simply thai, and ate all we wanted! 6 ppl, bil = 600++ RMB.. bUT co zlimin had staff discount for tat new outlet.. it became only 156RMB ard there lah forgot e exact amt. hee.. after e meal, we went KTV fm 12pm to 6am lor. fun fun fun.. but everyone were deadbeat after tat. not forgeting sun is e day when e temp suddenly drop all e way stil below 0. we were all freezing cold when we stepped out of the KTV. so we dashed into the Yong He Dou Jiang immediately for breakfast. headed home and wasted e whole day sleeping. hee hee
wah. restof e wk, cold cold cold. reali winter liao. go work in layers and now more or less used to it le. winter reali make ppl reali lazy thou.
as for work. rather busy this wk. plastics pad printing in production. gt to laise wif e plastics department quite often. and.. e plastics QE is quite shuai & cute. haha. always give e "angm chuo" look. hee. plus wif a audit our client. tis wk rather busy at work lor. OT a few times and had dinner (treat fm jason & collegue) TWICE at Gao Qiao area. hee. reali v happy and it is great to eat wif e colleagues. tried e SHanghai Lao Jiu twice also. ERM. reali quite alcoholic but so- so laH. dun find it especially nice or wat. haha
now just back fm market wif justin. usually go wif alvin one. alvin shuang lor. went chong qing wif his company. tat time when he went suzhou was 5 star hotel. now surely 5 star again. envious sia.
okok, mebbe gg over zhongshan later to help out. den gt to hit e books liao. exmas exams coming real soon lor. aiyo. cham. must study study study le.

yoz.


finally decided to use my multiply site liao. (http://weidiz.multiply.com) justin keep telling me abt its improvemnet.. and peiru was telling me abt how convenient it is,, and me.. finally decided to stop being lazy and blog a bit here and there.

a couple of things to do:
1. i had imported fm journals fm my blog spot but seems like there r some prob wif e photos. will edit when i get home after lessons tonight
2. mebbe trsfr a bit more? since my blog is titled 上海记.. will try to explore the possibility of importing more journals here
3. updates? so many things had happened since my previous blog in oct.. it is now DEC liao. kaoz. damn fast.. panel discussion, Beijing industrial trip + touring, SHEN elections & AGM & PINK PARTY.. all my workload coming in.. exams approaching..HP spoil. no reception.. e sianess over e fact that all my ppl in my hse except me gg home(SINGAPORE) during CNY.. and me gg to meet linchun later at fudan despite i am terribily sick & down wif flu. blew my nose til 破皮了.. sad.

ok. promise tat more updates coming..hee