"sticks & stones only break bones, words can shatter e soul"

one of those "flowery" phases, i would use in secondary school days when i write my essay. My english had nvr been gd, so will try to force it to look cheem by adding some flowery lines. but tat is nt e onli reason. one other reason is tat i believe tat tis sentence is so true to heart. something tat i can relate with. rather often.

perhaps i am too sensitive at times. too sensitive a person, so words can hurt me. (nt shatter to that extend lah).
perhaps i am a difficult person to understand. ppl only see the surface & tink otherwise.

perhaps i easily regard ppl ard me as my friends. close frens. and i expect too much of a fren. i expect a fren to understand me better. esp after so much communication & time spent together. only to know.. i am regarded as someone cheapo.. after all. yesh, i noe the person say it jokingly. e person may nt mean it..but as what i always believe, as agreed by yu.. it is the unintentional words that hurts even more. coz tat is the truest of all.

so..what is the definition of being cheapo? who would want to be cheapo, if he/she can help it? who likes to be regarded as cheapo? who understands the internal struggle inside a cheapo's mind? and what's wrong with being one? i admit i am cheapo most of the time but i dare to say i am only harshest to myself, on my personal expenses but i am willing to spend on family & frenz & colleagues. if i can afford to do so. it is so unfair to judge me or pass comments without knowing me well. and i know it is just so stupid for me to be so affected by it. However, that is if i tink it is not true. i guess i am just upset. so defensive and over-reacting coz i know i cant help but agree tat the remark is true to a large extend.i am just a pathetic cheapo who minds how others tink of me, esp people i regard as frenz. whom i tot would understand me.

i miss my frenz so much. frenz in singapore. frenz who had grown with me.(PYQT )frenz who most understand me. who see the true me. frenz who bother to read my blog. thanks. anyway, i tink by the time you read this, i shd be ok and studying for my exams liao. i just need an outlet and rest assure, i recover v fast. i have learnt to be stronger. i hope. dun worry.