erm.. 3 days to first paper

i cAan onli say i am super far behind time.
and i finally agree wif MY
e MTO webcast C.M.I cannot make it..
some can't be viewed.. can't fastforward at all..

( ~_ ~)

why??

ok tis post is kinda stupid..
i gt a test tml n i had yet to finish studying..
and i juz finish watching e channel 8 show "huo xia qu"..
juz feeling v sad..
why muz liang yi die? =(

okie.. back to studies..

《第一次亲密接触》

前几天，当我用电脑时，突然有看蔡智恒的《第一次亲密接触》的冲动。
其实，我在两年前就下载了，只是一直没把它看完。
昨晚，终于看完了。真的很浪漫。
也在同时，看到琪的BLOG 提起书里的两段文字，我也很喜欢。

女主角是在网站上，看到男主角的这段话，才被吸引的：

“如果我有一千万，我就能买一栋房子。
我有一千万吗？
没有。 所以我仍然没有房子。

如果我有翅膀，我就能飞。
我有翅膀吗？
没有。 所以我也没办法飞。

如果把整个太平洋的水倒出，也浇不熄我对你爱情的火焰。
整个太平洋的水全部倒得出吗？
不行。 所以我并不爱你。 ”

女主角在身患重病时，回了他这段话：

“如果我还有一天寿命，那天我要做你女友。
我还有一天的命吗？.
没有。 所以，很可惜。我今生仍然不是你的女友。

如果我有翅膀，我要从天堂飞下来看你。
我有翅膀吗？
没有。 所以，很遗憾。我从此无法再看到你。

如果把整个浴缸的水倒出，也浇不熄我对你爱情的火焰。
整个浴缸的水全部倒得出吗？
可以。 所以，是的。我爱你... ”

钱为何物？

"Money is not the most important thing in the world. Love is. Fortunately i love money.."
我有一件衣服， 上面是这么写的。
当时，觉得有趣，几个好友便买下来，送我做生日礼物。
但，此时的我， 却很讨厌钱。

说什么钱不是万能的， 我根本不相信。
若是真的， 为什么会有：“先敬罗衣后敬人”， “有钱能使鬼推磨”，
"Money is the root of all evil”， 这些负面的话？
在这个世上， 根本就是钱最重要， 样样都要钱。
吃饭要钱，搭车要钱，读书要钱，上厕所也要钱。
钱可以使人六亲不认，丧失本性，失去理智。

但人为什么一定要把钱看得这么重呢？

把钱看得很重的， 是没钱，自卑，没安全感的人。
从小只能看着别人的好，安慰自己是要以后有钱就可以买了。
虽然很想吃麦当劳，肯德鸡，也不敢告诉父母自己很想吃。
因为，吃快餐是奢侈的。
只能默默羡慕别人从就养尊处优，可以学什么钢琴，小提琴，吉他，画画，芭蕾舞，却不珍惜。
或是那些年年都出国旅行，什么澳洲，美国，香港，日本，韩国，泰国，个国都去过，却不知足。
小少看电影，是不喜欢看，还是不舍得看？
凡是斤斤计较，是吝啬，还是节俭？
出门少吃，是不饿，不喜欢，还是太奢侈。
凡是不喜欢别人请，是因为孤僻，还是因为知道自己请不起对方？

为什么，
礼物一定要贵重？礼轻就不能情义重？
东西一定要名牌？没牌就是疵货吗？
手机一定要时髦？拿旧款的，为何会不禁觉得丢脸？
请吃东西一定要请餐馆？为何我不觉的餐馆的食物会有如此的好吃？

是谁说，简单也是一种的快乐？

为什么有那么多人，那么努力工作，但还是穷一辈子？

为什么，有的孩子，从小在节俭的环境下成长，长大却变得爱慕虚荣？
是不是因为周围的朋友太有钱，太慷慨，无形中成了一种压力，让自己变得自卑。
也因为自卑，才不断掩饰自己的穷境，打肿脸皮充胖子，更无视家人的失望与关怀，一意孤行。
还是因为本身就想不通。压抑已久的自卑心，如今已不受控制。

人比人气死人。
但，我不跟别人比，别人就不跟我比了吗？
不跟别人比，就会知足，会快乐吗？

拍照

今天， 我在子芳的BLOG读到了这段文字：
“
真实的照片，我们不是在做戏给谁看。眼睛要长得大大的，脸要注意角 度确保拍出来的照片脸会显得小一点，而且双下巴的照片一定要删掉。 虚伪。

墙上很多的照片，我开始分不清哪一个是真实的自己。拍照的念头是什 么？是完全为了自己留下美丽的光阴，还是要换来别人口中的一句好 美？

发现朋友随意在路上帮我拍的照片，那时刚下课的样子本来就是累了， 背后是正在建设的道路，根本没有背景可取，而我也是那一倦态。但现 在墙上贴著的许多照片里它却显得突出。因为它真实。

始终都在追求著一种由内散发出来的真实感。谈谈悠悠的弥漫在身边。 然我不知道这一种追求是否也属于一种造作，但是真的是这样想达到 。

是不应该说是追求吧，而是一种迈进？走向？............................."

我的感想：

简短的几句话，却令我思考了好一阵子。。我根本没想过，拍照的目的是为什么。。却如她所说的，就知道要拍的美美的。。。
这样是虚伪吗？肤浅吗？
还是没自信的表现？
希望从照片中，看到自己想看到的自己，或许会让自己开心一点。。。

a smile made my day!

oh well.. reali dreaded sch today.. coz i know i did nt do anything productive (in terms of academic aspect) over e wkend n will be damn stressed lor..

haiz.. yup i noe.. exams juzt 2 wks away.. yaya.. but den.. stil hard to drill tis fact into my mind n translate it into action right away..

so was feeling depressed n went home alone after sch.. my fren stayed in sch to revise..
anyway.. was gg up e escalator..
there was tis little gal.. abt 2/3 yrs old looking innocently at me..
haha,.. as no well else was looking.. i made a funny face n smiled at her..
ok.. there was a time delay of abt 2 secs..
and she smiled back radiantly at me..
hee~~ so happy..and that smile made my day..
but i was stil tired n slept all e way to wlds.. haha
almost missed my stop.. woke up in time..
actuly.. last wk i oso almost missed my stop.. luckily XQ woke me up @ marsiling lah..
sometimes... simple things can make me happy.. yeah!

Wk gals at centre!! 

Ruijuan and me on e way back! 

wif lindy n wee chou at Bishan Park.  

FAMILY OUTING!!!

today... e weather was great.. as joa ling n i were saying.. so glad that it didn't rain.
however, the sun was reali sorching hot and we were already prespiring like mad during e long walk fm bishan MRT to e middle part of the Bishan park!
all volunteers were so dehydrated and totally exhausted man..
luckiliy eric volunteered and went to buy drinks for us.. so grateful n gan dong lei..

however, i would say that all of us reali enjoyed ourselves..
10 families.. record-breaking lei!!
and all the volunteers reali had a lot to do. running here n there..

however.. haiz.. there are 4 sad things
1. battery holder cover of my cam came off.. but now stil can close lah
2. e button of my DIGI video cam is spoilt!! now cant take pics/videos at all!!(somemore i agreed to lebd JJ to tape down his boat.. shit !)
3. guowen n xi qian were left behind n they bus left without them (but they gt catch up thou)
4. Xiqian lost his wallet..(aiyo.. why such cases always happen to WK's volunteers..)

quoting guowen.. "sometimes, when you suay. you suay ALL e WAY!"
sadly.. it is somehow true n did apply to me as well...

Kailun and I facilitating.. for e last time i guess.. 

Consolidation party!!  

i LOVE WONDERKIDS

fri was e last session.. and we had our family outing today...
as kl said.. it indeed.. in certain espects.. ended with a BIG BANG..
many volunteers came.. WC n HX dropped by too.. nt to men tion LF n JJ
yup.. despite some imprefections here n there.. i would say it was a great ending after all...

i especially like KL's msg to WK man.. quoting parts of it here..

" Dear Yishuners,

A very strong showing by volunteers despite all your busy schedules..
At least we end this season with a BANG!
Thank you all you new and old volunteers,
A great pleasure to work with all of ya and Chee Wei especially...
Our days are numbered.. Haha...

This batch of wonderkids is the most challenging i have faced so far,
So i think all in all we did well lah..
Though there are certain aspects where we can improve upon,
Skills like engaging the kids more into our programme,
But then again, we always got the next batch of kids to hone our handling and managing abilities..
So it's a constant learning curve,
Dun feel let down by some of these kids' responses even today!

XX was holding this conversation with me today,
So touched that he's actually willing to open up to volunteers now..
Credit goes to Xiqian and whoever was handling him..
It is instances like this that makes volunteering worthwhile..

I must admit i was devoid of ideas come the end of this season,
Glad to see it through...
Thanks for all your help and company..
Noise and laughters accompanied us through the season...

Regards,
Kailun "

my reply..

"yup yup.. i guess thou this session was v messy.. n chaotic.. i too was v impressed by e kids performance lah..
8 wks is reali too short to do a gd job. but i guess we all did our best..
i guess i love my last 2 sessions e best.. coz i gt to interact more wif XX n XX i dunno lei.. they reali gt a cute side of their own,, and i reali feel that XX had improved alot.. during e performance.. he reali gt shake e shakers wif pride.. and he followed e actions for I'm special song lor.. XX too.. did his part thou he was rather disappointed tat his mum was late n nvr come in....
volunteers of coz.. improved too.. hee.. all v pro..juz too bad that we dun have enuff kids to pair wif e volunteers...
THANKS for coming down despite e heavy workload n exams..
THANKS to everyone for tolerating wif me.. my stern-ness, gan chiong-ness, craziness.. (sorry to ZL n RJ..e taxi fare..oops )to MY, GK, Lindy who always rushed to yishun wif me.. for helping whenever u can
to seniors who always give great advices.. n constantly show a great deal of care n concern..
to e COMM n to KAILUN especially.. u all are a bunch of great ppl.. KAILUN..i can't imagine wat would happen without u.. u r as a great working partner/gossip-mate/FRENZ!
TO YUANJUAN.. who is always so supportive n encouraging "

and zeliang's reply.. (last one liao.. hee)

"Ya I think this sem's sessions have been most satisfying coz this is by far the most difficult
batch of kids i've seen in my 2years in Yishun, XX, XX, XX, XX ,XX just to name a few....... I will remember them for a long long time haha. The joy derived from seeing the improvements in these kids over the 8 sessions just warms me and makes me feel like becoming a dad immediately (paternal instincts kicking in oops haha).

I think today's session can be described as lively coz i think many of the kids are already emotionally attached to Yishun so they want to express it by being more active+their parents are here so can't really say today is chaotic lah.

To the current committee, esp KL and CW. I think u all did a great job over the past yr. Feel that the KL/CW ying yang combi is like a match made in heaven(oops sorry SM) and very well aided by the committee so kudos to u guys.

Can't say i really know each and every one of you well,esp the Yr 1s(paiseh...), but i know that yishun has a very bright future
with you ppl around. So here's wishing all the best to the future committee and volunteers. Hope next sem we can get newbies who can keep this fire buring bright then it's steady pom pee pee liao.

Even makes me feel a bit paiseh that i not very enthu abt yishun in the past haha.

To the Real Estate girls( sorry i dunno all your names yet paiseh), sorry for not giving u the ice-cream today. Supposed to give then dunno why tok tok tok then forget liao. Sigh can't blame lah i getting old. But glad u all got your ice-cream in the end=) Ya think you girls are darn good with the kids. Was really marvelling at what u all could do with the kids earlier in the semester.

And i think Wenchang and HongXian deserve special mention for coming down today coz they already in 4th yr so work very bz
but they still took time off from studies to join in the consolidation party.

And to Yuanjuan who has been our pillar of support for so many years. It's coz of u that Wonderkids has been such a great experience.

Also to my CCK kakis Lindy and Ruijuan, i'm lucky that this sem i never had to travel home alone from Yishun coz it seems that if one never come the other will haha. otherwise the journey home would have been a long, lonely one......

So see you ppl this sunday. Let's end this with a bang!! "

yeah yeah.. wonderkids... a very important part of my UNI life..
erm.. when friends ask me wat i do there.. i feel that no matter how i explain they can nvr understand e amt of pleasure n satisfaction we derived fm it..
i love wonderkids man..