STEAMBOAT - large gp outing...

eh.. actuly tis is for ytd's event..haha.. but too tired to blog ytd,, here it goes..
oh well, it was supposed to be a JB trip.. but den.. lata due to many crop-ups.. those who are gg onli left a small gp. so change of plans to steamboat..

ok to be frank.. i always take super long to decide to go for such large gp gathering because:


1. i'm juz tired.. and lazy

2. i dunno since when,, i tink i'm less excited abt large gp outings..

mebe too much organising le.. get worn out. juz ytd, i sent an email to one of my yahoo gps.. and wrote quite a long msg to commend 2 juniors for their efforts in keep organising activities for my club. no doubt they might be over doing it, by organising too many at a time, i guess they stil deserve credit..

quoting fm my own email.."i strongly believe that.. thou one does not expect anything in return when he does or organise sth, the least we shd return is our appreciation.. tat will be the driving force to move on.. yup.. at least to me.. if not, i guess.. any normal man will..some pt in time, juz lose the drive to move on.... "

haha.. and sadly, mebbe it applies to myself too. sometimes, you juz dunno why u need to tire yrself n busy yrself for? i mean, when it takes too much effort, and u dunno if anyone cares or appreciate, you willl qn yrself.. "what for"??
juz like when i spent hours drafting an email.. and there is no replies..or comments, i get discouraged..
jus like when i really wana share certain tots or ideas, amd everyone seems so busy for u, i get disappointed..

however, i have learnt that..i can say all i want here. frenz who wanna noe abt me will read, frenz who had read n wanna say sth will comment,, even if no one reads nor comments, i have gotten it off my chest.. and tat;s e whole pt.. revealing too much is dangerous.. but i guess, better den keeping evrything inside.. will explode sia. and i like to nag n tell stories.. haha..

oops.. disgress too much. back to topic...in e end... we had steamboat.. eh i would say it was quite fun la.. nt bad.. thou i dun quite like steamboat actuly.. haha coz..i dun like e BBQ chicken.. i juz dun like.. i dun like to drink soup.. the only cook food are oily food and cold.. and dun haf my fav mee goreng ytd.. haha.. but in e end.. i enjoyed cookin scrambled egg..! quite fun lah

3.ironically, in a big gp, i always end up doing things i dun like..
i dun like steamboat but had it 3 times wif e same gp of frenz..
i dun like BBQ but had one 2 wks ago and gg to have it again tml
i dun like to go those higher end "cafes, restaurants" who serves expensive yet unsatisfying meals coz it does nt suit my taste but tat's where i go most of e time for all sorts of gathering.. except when i meet my sec sch frenz..

4. most of e time, we end up in nonsensical crapping.. ha. i reali used to haf fun in those typical suaning and crappin sessions.. i mean.. all of e sake of fun.. to liven up e atmosphere mah. always need some jesters n clowns ard in large gp gathering..
ok. to some, they tink you r witty n humourous,
to some, they tink it is PR skill, being socialable..
but to some, they tink u r enjoying tat type of special attention... so much so tat when u r being suan.. u can't help doubting e "value" of such sessions n can no longer differentiate humour n sarcasism.
ha.. wat a negative comment.. aiya.. actuly i oso noe most of such sessions are brainless de..so need nt think so much.. but i tink i stil enjoy such sessions lah. but in moderation lor.

yup yup.. so wat makes me wanna go for such large gp outings?
most of the time, it is the people who r gg that makes me wanna go...
it does nt matter what we r doing or eating.. be it sth that i dun like to do or eat. as long as the crowd is rite, i'm stil happy at e end of the day...
MY once said it is very easy to make me happy.. simple things can touch my heart easily.. a sms, a note, a pat on my head, a comment in my blog, a reply to my mails, an offer for any help..any thing that makes me feel gd... ha..
true.. but den again.. i feel down easily. especially when i am too free.. so i always keep myself occupied so I have no time to tink tat much.. like dat, like will be simpler lor.