RECALLING PART 2
yup.. juz one las bit to wrap up my encounters for the whole yr..
which is.. after sem break..
WONDERKIDS..
hmmm, with more responsibilities it seems like i have less chance to interact with kids.. i oso feel the pressure of taking over as a chair and finaly understood why vic is so eager to hand over.. hmm.. reflecting on the last season of wonderkids, i oso dunno if i had did well ant.. but i know for sure is i have tried my best already.. being a chairman, brings abt other duties and responsiblities which unknowingly exerts pressure to me. ok.. parhaps it is e way i lok at it.. i see it as a task handled to me and i must do it well.. other than the normal ten sessions, we went on to organise POOH camp for the kids.. it was a different experience and i must say i reali enjoy myself alot. through the camp, i get to work more closely with the comm members and i see the camp as a great opportunity for e new volunters to bond togther. most children n volunteers who went did enjoyed the camp... and tat is enufft to make our efforts worthwhile.. reali.. other den camp, i am oso in MC for CSC day.. another avenue where i can volunteer my service, try sth new n diff and get to know more volunteers..
as you can see, i reali spend quite an amount of time on csc, wonderkids.. and i see it as one of my priorities in my student life., togther with studies, tuitions/work etc. i guess the only reason why i am so active is due to the friends there ba.. of coz.. we must work with ppl we are comfortable with.. yup.. comfort is quite a suitable word i guess.. but..hmmm, recently, some of my frens who had worked with me on several occasions feedback that i tend to be rather impatient for results and tis makes working wif me diff n stressful when they can;t keep up with my pace.. i know they are telling me out of gd will and i am aware of such a diference in mentality..( i wouldn;t say that it is a prob ) at that juncture, i did not try to explain to them why i am always so "impatient" for results.. why i always set deadlines..and stick to it.. and "pushes" others to stick to it.why i always try so hard to squeeze meetings into "one day".. why i am always rushing here and there.. why i stil wanna take part in so many activities despite my busy schedule due to other commitments... simply because.. they did not ask why. if only if they had asked why, perhaps.. i would have explained to them. I set early deadlines so that there is time for crop-ups.. they get to finish the needful in advance, so they have more time for other things.. i'm always so impatient for results.. coz i'm passionate abt e proj and excited for results.. i struggle to juggle btw tis n other commitments coz it means sth impt to me.. i took part in the activities coz i wanna be part of it. certainly things.. i tot, need nt be said out explicitly.. but nvm, hope they will understand one day. of coz, i will oso try to reflect on the way i handle things..
oh ya.. new volunteers are v frenzly n enthu too.. and we all believe that it is gd.. they are full of drive.. nd hopefully can bring abt better ideas to wonderkids.,
studies during tis sem.. is rather difficult.. perhaps.. i;m distracted but other commitments that i have lost sight of my most fundamental duty as a student.. i did not put in my best for my studies tis sem. when i finally wanna put my heart into it, there are many unexpected things that prop up.. so sudden.. that i was rather lost. as mentioned in the previous blog, my paternal grandma and uncle were both hospitalised in Nov. it was exams wk for my sis and me.. and my bro oso is also in e midst of settling some sching issues..(to continue sching.. or go poly nxt yr).. nothing seems rite,., and at that time.. i also had a major misunderstanding with a fren.. who refuses to spk to me at all..i was baffled by e fact that he can juz shake off our friendship juz like tat.. i noe it's his character.. tat's juz him.. but it saddens me greatly den.. for evrytime i try to patch up.. via msn or sms... i was smacked back by cold silence..i tried to spk to 2 frenz abt it.. but no one seems to understand what i was going through coz there are many things which i can't and dunno how to explain.. i was oso tied down by other responsibilities in my cca... my results are falling too..nothing seems to be going rite.. tat was e trough of my life man..and i could identify dearly to the lyrics of a song of Angela, Journey.."sometimes it feels no one understands, i don't even know why i do the things i do..." yup.. tat was e feeling.. i juz feel that no one understands what i am going through and it's tiring to try to explain.. and to find someone who is available to listen to you. Most of my frenz are always busy with their own studies and i reckoned that it wasn't e right time to bother them wif my personal stuffs.
yup.. juz one las bit to wrap up my encounters for the whole yr..
which is.. after sem break..
WONDERKIDS..
hmmm, with more responsibilities it seems like i have less chance to interact with kids.. i oso feel the pressure of taking over as a chair and finaly understood why vic is so eager to hand over.. hmm.. reflecting on the last season of wonderkids, i oso dunno if i had did well ant.. but i know for sure is i have tried my best already.. being a chairman, brings abt other duties and responsiblities which unknowingly exerts pressure to me. ok.. parhaps it is e way i lok at it.. i see it as a task handled to me and i must do it well.. other than the normal ten sessions, we went on to organise POOH camp for the kids.. it was a different experience and i must say i reali enjoy myself alot. through the camp, i get to work more closely with the comm members and i see the camp as a great opportunity for e new volunters to bond togther. most children n volunteers who went did enjoyed the camp... and tat is enufft to make our efforts worthwhile.. reali.. other den camp, i am oso in MC for CSC day.. another avenue where i can volunteer my service, try sth new n diff and get to know more volunteers..
as you can see, i reali spend quite an amount of time on csc, wonderkids.. and i see it as one of my priorities in my student life., togther with studies, tuitions/work etc. i guess the only reason why i am so active is due to the friends there ba.. of coz.. we must work with ppl we are comfortable with.. yup.. comfort is quite a suitable word i guess.. but..hmmm, recently, some of my frens who had worked with me on several occasions feedback that i tend to be rather impatient for results and tis makes working wif me diff n stressful when they can;t keep up with my pace.. i know they are telling me out of gd will and i am aware of such a diference in mentality..( i wouldn;t say that it is a prob ) at that juncture, i did not try to explain to them why i am always so "impatient" for results.. why i always set deadlines..and stick to it.. and "pushes" others to stick to it.why i always try so hard to squeeze meetings into "one day".. why i am always rushing here and there.. why i stil wanna take part in so many activities despite my busy schedule due to other commitments... simply because.. they did not ask why. if only if they had asked why, perhaps.. i would have explained to them. I set early deadlines so that there is time for crop-ups.. they get to finish the needful in advance, so they have more time for other things.. i'm always so impatient for results.. coz i'm passionate abt e proj and excited for results.. i struggle to juggle btw tis n other commitments coz it means sth impt to me.. i took part in the activities coz i wanna be part of it. certainly things.. i tot, need nt be said out explicitly.. but nvm, hope they will understand one day. of coz, i will oso try to reflect on the way i handle things..
oh ya.. new volunteers are v frenzly n enthu too.. and we all believe that it is gd.. they are full of drive.. nd hopefully can bring abt better ideas to wonderkids.,
studies during tis sem.. is rather difficult.. perhaps.. i;m distracted but other commitments that i have lost sight of my most fundamental duty as a student.. i did not put in my best for my studies tis sem. when i finally wanna put my heart into it, there are many unexpected things that prop up.. so sudden.. that i was rather lost. as mentioned in the previous blog, my paternal grandma and uncle were both hospitalised in Nov. it was exams wk for my sis and me.. and my bro oso is also in e midst of settling some sching issues..(to continue sching.. or go poly nxt yr).. nothing seems rite,., and at that time.. i also had a major misunderstanding with a fren.. who refuses to spk to me at all..i was baffled by e fact that he can juz shake off our friendship juz like tat.. i noe it's his character.. tat's juz him.. but it saddens me greatly den.. for evrytime i try to patch up.. via msn or sms... i was smacked back by cold silence..i tried to spk to 2 frenz abt it.. but no one seems to understand what i was going through coz there are many things which i can't and dunno how to explain.. i was oso tied down by other responsibilities in my cca... my results are falling too..nothing seems to be going rite.. tat was e trough of my life man..and i could identify dearly to the lyrics of a song of Angela, Journey.."sometimes it feels no one understands, i don't even know why i do the things i do..." yup.. tat was e feeling.. i juz feel that no one understands what i am going through and it's tiring to try to explain.. and to find someone who is available to listen to you. Most of my frenz are always busy with their own studies and i reckoned that it wasn't e right time to bother them wif my personal stuffs.
anyway.. somehow, i gt over it le. and i am relieved that i had a long chat wif plong today abt wat i was going thru for tis entire period. it was like releasing all my pent-up feelings..which i had held on dearly for so long. of coz to cut story short, i only mentioned some of the many things which happened.. but tat was enuff.. reali.. and now. wat i wanna do is to conc on my studies nxt yr. other things.. i guess juz let them take their own stride.. i tink i shall take a more passive role in my cca now and juz conc on guiding the new committe along. yup.
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