雨过应该就会天晴吧

ytd.. i watched a DVD borrowed fm my frenz.. grave of e fireflies..
abt a bro n sis during war time..
lost their parents..how they live without them..
super sad n heartwarming..
those who noe me well..haha.. water tap activated.. yeah..

i was reading thru my testi tis morn..
coz gt someone add me as fren in friendster mah..
den i long ime nvr go chk le..
quite sweet lah.. reading thru all those testi.. tat brings back lots of memories...
gt one entry, plong oso gt mention my tear duct being v active..

haha.. i guess so too..
i like to watch those sad movies.. n get my eyes watery n nose blocked..
like letting up of pent-up feelings..
yeah..
sometimes.. when i get into conflicts.. with my bro or whoever,
i am oso v bad at controlling tears..
but i dun like tis.. coz like a bit weak like dat..
i tink most ppl, esp guys hate it when gals cry..
eh.. coz. once someone cry.. u can't do anything abt it..n have to give in..
to some.. tis is like a "plus-pt" for gals.. best stragety..
but i dun like pl to give in to me..
eh.. for me.. i rather overcome tis wkness lor..
but everytime when i am trying hard to contol my emotions.. nt to cry...
a simple word like "sorry.."
or phrase like "are you ok?", "what's wrong?", "why you voice so funny?" , "r u crying?"
will make me lose control again..
yeah..

but den again.. after tat,
i will feel much better..
it will nt make me so sad le..
haha..
and v often.. after tat.. like a few hrs after,
i will feel super stupid for crying over silly stuffs..
most of e time.. it is juz sth v v v small, insignificant...
but somehow..
to me.. at tat moment of time..it seems v impt to me..
so much so my emotions overcome e rational me..
ya lor..

but like i believe..there is sunshine after e rain..
i am usual fine after tat..
coz. i would have straighten out my tots after tat..